My mind was clear leaving work tonight
For once no worries just being
My focus mainly on the pattern of the rain that gently splashed against my skin
The air was cool, crisp, absolutely delicious to my weary lungs
My steps were not of haste
I just wanted to soak in every feeling, sensation
I thought of nothing, especially not you
The sound of my name snapped me out of all drifting thought
I turned catching a glimpse of your wet frame coming closer
Standing with bated breath I tried to discern what you were doing here
“Hi,” was all I could say
My voice had an edge
Nervousness throbbed in my heart
Maybe I already knew your intentions
You met me at my car
Standing so close the scent of your cinnamon gum became my atmosphere
Your words pressed firmly against my heart, “I’m sorry for being a jerk, give me a second chance, come to coffee with me. Tonight”
I stood there gently trembling partly due to the cold, but more so due to my answer
“I would love to. But I can’t, not tonight.”
Your gaze slowly fell, resting on my trembling hands
My heart quickened as I saw your hand slowly reach toward mine
The moment of touch sent electricity through my entirety
Your grip was firm, warm, reassuring
More words reached my ears, “I was wrong about you. I want you in my life. I’m so lonely, but with you I know I’m known.”
My mind told me to leave now.
To get in the car and speed away.
But your last words rang true of my own heart.
“I’m so lonely. I just want to be known.”
Looking deeply into those gorgeous brown eyes of yours,
I heard my voice saying “I’m right here.”
You moved in closer pressing yourself against me
Not moving a muscle, just reminding myself to breathe, I stood firm
I felt your hand gently rest against my side
Pulling me impossibly closer
Your lips took mine by surprise.
I was lost in the warmth of you.
A sudden sensation of cold wet metal, snapped me back into reality.
My lips broke away, freeing the gasp from my lungs to be heard.
Your firm body pressing me against the car,
I knew, knew instantly this was wrong.
Pushing against your solid pounding chest I whispered “I have to go.”
Leaving the parking lot I glanced in the mirror
only to see you consumed by the freshly pouring rain.