as I ponder how much I miss you
I keep reminding myself
that this is a good move for you
that you will excel and prosper
like you’ve been aching for all these years
But my heart
my heart doesn’t want the physical distance between us
it wants you close by for always
because i love you, cherish you… need you
Do I love you enough
to be strong
as the miles between us span farther and farther?
I know I do.
I know my heart is forever bound in loyalty to you.
I can’t help but love you even more
as I hear you tell me about your day, your week, your new life.
I realize this is good for you,
with each passing day I’m more convinced.
But my heart can’t stand this truth of having to let you go.
Of knowing that one day you’ll find a new version of me, who will become your new best.
For it seems that my soul is destined to be a part of your life,
in however many forms it must take to be with you.
Is it wrong that I want to be your plus one?
That I want to be the one at your elbow smiling, like you hung the moon for me, as you politely introduce me to the surrounding beings.
Is it wrong that I want to be the one to charm people with my savoir faire in your honor?
To be the one you sneak a peek at first as you gauge the success of your latest joke.
Is it wrong to want to be the source that brings you the most laughter?
To be the one you glance at for reassurance when you feel your most vulnerable.
To be your plus one
The heart on your sleeve
To be your added atmosphere
The warm breath whispering in your ear
To be those light caresses on your back, your arms, your neck
The hand desperately seeking, yet innocently sliding into yours
I crave it
Ache for it
For to be your plus one is to be chosen by you
To be your desired accompaniment
How could I not long for this honor
To be yours
you are more than just flesh and bone
you are grace plus warmth
equalling out to love
that’s it, you are love
you are the love that
keeps my heart beating
you are my purpose
you are my love