Don’t Know

I don’t know where to start
but that has been my problem for the past 6 months
I’ve been lost
spinning out in the same place for months on end
If you knew my truth maybe you’d get it
maybe you’d understand
why seemingly everyday is some type of overwhelming mountain climb
how no matter what I do or how much I try
peace, calm, a blip of happiness can only last for the briefest of moments

So where do I start
how do I find the voice that once emanated from this unprepossessing mouth
I guess the only place to go is to the moment
the moment when I lost everything