Vortex

When I close my eyes

I see flashes of nightmares

moments of seemingly good memories

suddenly twisted, darkened, and tainted

on replay

over

and

over

and

over again

 

Like lightning my eyes flash open

I find my self breathless

and  reeling from beautiful memories decimated by loss

 

It hurts to think about you

live without you

to try and pick up pieces

to a puzzle I no longer can envision

 

Every time I am overwrought

with the pain of reality

I close my eyes

to try and calm my inner turmoil

and instead am thrown even deeper

into my vortex of loss

 

 

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