The Post Learn

I’m learning

About myself 


That not everyone loves the way I do

Or sees things from my 5’10” point of view

I’m learning 

That growth hurts more than anything you can imagine

That strength comes from an experience of pain

That having a huge heart means it gets abused more regularly

I’m learning

It’s okay I’m not perfect

It’s okay that I’m me

It’s okay that I fail


I’m learning…




5 layers deep

into my psyche

and you still won’t know the real me


15 layers deep

and you’ll see all the fissures

threatening my structural integrity


25 layers deep

and you’ll understand

the nightmares that plague me


35 layers deep

and maybe you’ll cry

the way I cry myself to sleep


45 layers deep

if you see this place

feel privileged

for this is my inner sanctum


You judge me on my outer layer

but you honestly have no idea who I am

what swirls inside this core


You try to conform

physical features

and ignore

a soul, a heart, a mind

you’ve forgotten the fragile person

underneath that tough exterior