Assimilation

Fight

constantly struggling

against me being me and

me having to please you…

Somehow

no matter what

I’m not exactly living up to what you want

that’s it, you

it always comes back to you

What you want

don’t want

what you need

don’t need

how I make you look, feel, what I do for you

I ask for a moment alone

time with a friend

time to rest

a day to be me

and you explode!

into a million fiery insults,

a puddle of anxiety,

suddenly you can’t exist without me…

a part of me feels

wanted

needed

important

but this other part of me feels trapped

used

controlled

imprisoned by you

I hate that feeling

because I honestly care,

there’s goodness there between us

but  I don’t know if its enough

to be worth me sacrificing

all of me

and be assimilated by you

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